Judgement. 

We as the human beings we are, have a immense addiction to instantly judge others based on physical looks. One can be attractive but a mess inside. One can look ugly to you but really be your so called "soul mate". Let's face it, in this world- it ALL depends on looks. Yes, many people talk about this topic of judge someone instantly, but I for one have never fully embraced what the meaning of truly judging someone is- that is until recently. I am the kind of person that does judge a book by the cover- metaphorically and literally- and I do not deny that fact. I was looking at a large variety of books today when I went to a library I have never been to, and I found myself doing what I always do- reading the title and looking at the front before even reading the inside flap. There is a process really- I start by looking at the title on the spine- if it doesn't interest me, I keep going. If the title is remotely interesting, I pull out the book half way off the shelf to get a semi good look at the cover. If the cover design doesn't "meet my interests"- if you will- I keep going. This system is one that I repeat for basically every book on the shelf. So I have been doing this system for basically my whole book searching career, so what changed today you might ask, and I will give you a answer- my best friend. I love my best friend- she is the most unique person I have ever met. She snorts, laughs, points, makes purring/ "grrr" sounds (some times I  honestly can't tell which one it is) and she is a simply wonderful person let alone a wonderful friend. She is faithful, honorable and everything you would want in a best friend- but there is a draw back. This girl who has every best friend quality you would want- is dare I say it- attractive. I love her as a best friend and nothing more- but I have to watch other guys practically drool over her. This gets annoying- let me tell you. She deserves to be appreciated for everything she has to offer- which is a lot- but the thing is that these guys drool over what she looks like and the fact that she is very flirtatious- but they don't really realize who she is. You could say that I am jealous- and I guess I am. She naturally receives the attention of the opposite sex. I guess that men are hard wired to be drawn to the best attractive, best looking part of the population of the opposite sex for survival and all that good stuff. So I watch as she dances and laughs and flirts with out even being aware that she is doing it and I watch as the opposite sex admire all that they have before them- so to speak. Yes there are things that set me apart from my friend. a) body type and height- I am shorter and slightly more "stocky" where is she taller and more evenly distributed- kind of. b) she takes care of her self- I pull my uncontrollable thick hair (beautiful but has a mind of it own) in a pony tail almost every day and I don't wear mascara, eye liner, ectr.- nothing at all. She ALWAYS wears stuff on her face, her hair straight or rarely in a braid. c) naturally she is flirtatious and is loud and naturally has a confidence to her- I... not so much. I am more cautious, quieter, and blush a lot! So I guess that I do have somethings that I can change in order to receive some kind of attention- but the question is- do I have to change?? Do I have to wear stuff on my face to hide my rebellious pores? Must I straighten my hair so that you can no longer tell by my hair how high the humidity is outside? Must I flirt endlessly with someone who might have the ever so slight chance of have some kind of chemistry with me? I have had this debate going on in my head for sometime and I have to say- I honestly don't know. I think that it is good to take care of yourself, and be all that you can be- but when do you stop being all that YOU can be and when do you start being what others want to see you be? 

 

So I have decided that when my mind continues to turn this whole concept over and over again looking for new clues that can help me come to a solution- I going to try to pull out a book or two randomly- yes I said it- I am going to risk the chance of pulling out a truly horrible book- but then again, that randomly chosen book could be my book soul mate...:) 

To be continued... 

Alice 

P.S.- "The absence of flaw in beauty is itself a flaw." - Havelock Ellis

This week has been insane. I have four tests in a IN ROW tomorrow- and they are in all of my hardest classes of course- so why am I blogging when I should be studying you ask? The answer is simple- procrastination is key. I usually do not like to procrastinate, but when I tend to get tired/ "fired" and over whelmed like I am right now, I procrastinate BIG time. I also got rubber bands today for the left side of my mouth. You see I have braces, and have had them since last september. Today is different though because now I have a thick rubber band that connects the top of my mouth to the bottom- but heres the catch- I only have the annoying yank of the rubber band on one side of my mouth- and so my mouth is officially uneven, which drives the OCD part of me insane. I also printed A LOT of pictures today in photo, which was good. Anyway- I have to study I guess. Wish me luck! 

Alice 

"There is no substitute for strength of character, and no excuse for the lack of it" - Unknown

Oh boy... this week end has been VERY interesting! Yesterday I went to work. I work at Special Gifts in town since I was 14 and enjoy it, most of the time. Over this summer I didn't work at all, but I got back to working just before school started. So we had to "incidents" yesterday. First- we had this lady walk around the store for a long time, carrying a take out box with a plastic bag over it. I think she bought something eventually-  but of course I don't remember. Well, after she left, we realized that she had the  garlic smelling take out box in bag for a reason- what ever was in there was oily and had formed puddles everywhere through out the store. The second "incident" came when we had this little girl pick up and move virtually one of EVERYTHING in the front of the store to the back of the store. So, first we had a mini- heart attack when we realized that stuff was missing (we have a problem with shop lifting) and then we just got mad when we saw the little girls stash of stuff in the back. So after work I went home to have some pizza with some of my younger sister's (Martha's) friends, before I went to my friends house to watch The Princess Bride and have some brownies. This morning we all had waffles with coconut and berries, and then when all of my sisters friends left, my mom and Martha ended up going back to bed, while I had a mini- shooting spree! I had to shot an "open roll" of film- which means that we take pics of everything/anything we want, but we also had to take a pic of a letter. We do the "letter" project every year- everyone gets a letter, we all have to take a picture of the letter vertically, and with all of the pics we spell out "p-h-o-t-o-g-r-a-p-h-y. Do I got "g" which sucks- but all well! 

I also took some photo's using  my mom's video camera, which was fun! I used my mom's painters lamps to use artificial light because the natural light has been a little weird today! 

Anyway, my dad and older sister, Katy are coming over for dinner and I still have to do homework, finish the last 4 or 5 shots on my roll of film, and practice cello! 

So- see ya  later! 

Alice 

"We judge ourselves by what we feel capable of doing, while others judge us by what we have already done." -Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

Good Morning! 

This week has been very busy and I was exhausted last night- but thankfully I got about 11 hours of sleep last night, so I am on the road to recovery! I had several tests/quizzes, along with papers, assignments, and all of that good stuff! Next week might be even harder because a lot of teachers are planning on big tests. The REALLY good news is that I got into photography!!!!! I love that class so much! The only thing is- well there are four levels in the class: basic, intermediate, advanced, and independent study. You are in one of those levels depending on how many classes you have. My first year, when I was in basic, I sucked. But last semester, in intermediate, I flourished! So this semester I am in advance- the thing is that I have very talented photographers in the level higher than me- so thats good. The thing that's not so good is that the only other person in intermediate is a person who I have had a not-- so-good past with. But I have decided that I can be "appreciative" and work with her, not against her! So thats my appreciative moment for this week! The other big thing that actually happened yesterday is that I got my AP English writing back yesterday. AP English is HARD, but my teacher had a talk with us before she handed back the papers. She said that we were in that class to become better writers, and so if we wanted to get angry, frustrated, or blame our grade on her- that we should leave right away. I think that in life we have a habit to over react and over dramatize over something that is all ready over and done with. So the lesson that she taught us yesterday was a good one, and it made me think about how I react to things that can not be undone. We have to live with the results and either work around them or even work with them. So  thats my lesson that I am passing on today- react differently! 

It works!

Alice 

"Acceptance is such a important commodity, some have called it "the first law of personal growth" -Peter McWilliams

  

So I'm new to this whole blog thing, so stay with me through all my errors! 

My name is Alice and I am a VERY complex person. I love to watch movies, read, write, and I LOVE photography! I speak a little spanish from school and recently (today recent) discovered 

my love for algebra (so far...). I am taking AP english, because I found Honors last year to be a pleasant challenge! 

I will be posting my photo's up every once and awhile, but I still have to find out how to!! 

So until then- see you later! 

Alice 

P.S.- A lot of teachers have quotes that they post every day or so, so I'll try to post a quote or too that I like! The quote today is: 

"Be the change you want to see in the world.:- Gandi